Finding some direction

So I am finally finding some direction in my life. It has really helped me to be taking classes again. I love it so much! I never realized how amazing it truly is to be in class. I always took it for granted. And I still do in a way. Hopefully, I will keep working on my attitude towards school and life.

Anyways, updates on my back. It is coming along very. . . very. . . .slowly. I was hopeful after the kinesiologist and he is helping me. I am no longer in pain every single second of the day. But I still can't do a whole lot. Sitting for too long, especially without back support, kills me. The other day, I bent over and pushed a box and about died. I kind of set myself back too, by doing too much over a couple of weekends. But that is my fault. It is shows how much I need to be taking care of my back. I can't be doing just anything still. So I know for now, that the mission just isn't on the tables. I wouldn't be able to give it my all. I would have to be the weaker companion and would have to rest a lot. And I just couldn't do that! I'm still not throwing the idea completely out, but it definitely won't be August.

So when I came to this realization, I also realized I had some choices I needed to be making. My plan was always to go to BYU after my mission. So I am currently applying for BYU for the Winter semester starting Jan. '10. But here comes the question: Should I move up there when my contract comes up here in Cedar City in August or wait until January? I am really leaning towards going up in August. Then hopefully I could find a job and be working up there, while still taking some Independent Study classes, and then be able to slide right into to classes at BYU in January. It would just be easier to go up to Provo in August. I wouldn't have to sign a new contract here in Cedar and then have to break it in December. Plus hopefully I would be able to meet more people easier at the beginning of a new school year instead of just the new semester.

That is one reason I am scared to death of all of this. The moving to a new place and having to meet new people. I will be moving up there where I don't really know anyone. I have my friends here and am comfortable, but I know I need to be doing things that take me out of my comfort circle, no matter how scary it is to me.

So I will soon be going up to Provo to be searching for a good apartment. Please if anyone has any good suggestions, let me know!! I found one place that I love, but it's pretty pricey. So, kind of last resort. Hopefully not all of the good places are filled already. But yeah, give me some suggestions for apartments!! And if anyone has any tips of jobs in Provo or Orem, let me know on that too! Love you all!